'Made In Chelsea' star Emily Blackwell recalls fear with premature baby

Made In Chelsea star Emily Blackwell feared for her baby daughter Eva's life when she was born 10 weeks early.

The former reality TV star, 28, opened up about the premature delivery in a recent interview with Mirror, recalling how she found herself worrying about the baby's lifespan.

"I guess the thing I was most scared of was her not making it, really," she told the publication.

"I was only like two weeks into my third trimester and my bump wasn't even that big. It sounds silly but I didn't know how big, I thought she was going to literally be so, so tiny."

Emily acknowledged that she was supported by medical staff and family and after the birth, she began to sense some hopefulness.

She recalled the moment she saw Eva who was placed in her arms, and was "pleasantly surprised."

There's so many things running through your head but at the same time you're concentrating and just trying to get through it. It's really hard to explain," Emily added.

Emily announced her pregnancy last September, just three weeks after announcing that she was engaged to her boyfriend of two years, Jordan.

Emily admitted to feeling worried after the birth as well, recalling how she and Jordan stood up for each other while dealing with the unknown.

"Me and Jordan would have to communicate with each other to help each other out. It really was, it was a journey. It was just the unknown we were just so scared. Every day, you don't know what [is] going to be thrown at you, so it's the fear and the unknown that is the most scary part."

"For me, I kind of just went into protection mode and I was kind of on a mission, honestly you wouldn't have recognised me. I was extremely anxious and extremely, almost wired from exhaustion and I didn't know what was going on. I was a woman on [a] mission in terms of making sure I did absolutely everything and anything I could to help her, to speed everything up."

"About 80% of women who give birth to a pre-term baby, they aren't given any reasons why, no rhyme or reason. So that in itself is very hard to come to terms with. You're constantly thinking why and what if, was it something I did? Why did my body fail me?"

"But how I coped with it was I flipped it and thought well maybe my body saved me, maybe my body saved her, you don't know. There was a reason why she came out and I'll never know the reason why. some people do, some people get [an] infection. But for the majority of us, we actually don't know."

She went on to say, "Was it a fluke, flip thing, could it happen again? Absolutely. So there are so many unanswered questions and unknown stuff for the future. There are loads of other women in the same boat and I know there are because I speak to them all on Instagram."